Enough of Drugs

I am having another night of not sleeping and my head spinning is 50 different directions and me being sorry for myself and ready to just through in the towel and accept things the way they are. So I got up and decided to look up the medications I am taking on WebMD and look at the side affects. Long and behold one drug I am taking causes sleeplessness and another causes depression, so having read that I just have to suck it up and get my head on straight because soon I will be off two of these medications and the Prednisone will be lowered.

I return to work on tomorrow, Thursday, I am under pressure to find a new job from my Wife. Which at this time I really do not need to hear about it. This company has such good medical insurance that changing jobs to me does not make sense. That does not mean that I would love to get back into the banking/mortgages but the industry is just in such termoral, and you never know if you are going to have your job the next day. I sure don't need that to worry about. Not sure what to do. If I can hold out until next Easter, I should be able to get a management position and do less of the hard labor I am doing now.

Sorry, I am just rambling on, I will blame it on the medications I am taking. Anyways, my IBD seems to be doing well. I do have a very very mild pain on my right side of my intestines not sure what is causing that. As for bleeding, I have had some when I wipe but not like it was 2 weeks ago. I just know in November I will have surgery (colonoscopy) I am worried about that, just because I have not seen a Doctor for over 10 years. I will just have to deal with what ever is handed my way. I did not take care of myself and was my fault. It is what it is.

E.J.